What is a confession? Is it a secret that would rather commit suicide than be known? Is it a fear of exposure of our twisted desires and appetites? Is it a declaration of guilt of being our true colors? Is the implicit made explicit? Or do we have the right to our secret garden where we can enjoy the mystery of our most intimate character? Is it a sin to be different or to enjoy what others endure?
When we confess do we ask for absolution and acceptance or is it just a way to repent until we have something to declare again? Is it the naked truth that screams :” I can’t take it anymore” when we are covered under the garments of a colorful smile that shows the world that we are happy and that everything is fine when we just wish to give up pretending and send a cry for help! Or when we admit to have an eccentric taste that makes us the black sheep in the white sheep herd, when we come out of the closet we hide in when we step into the sociable realm!
We feel the need to come clean and shed our old skin for a new one, we do not want to swim the ocean of culpability, so we declare to the world what we alone know in an attempt to look for a similar sin a parallel vice that we can ease our anguish with, as if knowing that someone else other than us have done what we did can grant us the validation that is alright somehow to have slipped-up the way we did for we are not alone in this!
It is very wrong to seek resemblance in order to acquire redemption, it is only us who can give ourselves that forgiveness, we should learn to forgive ourselves first, and we should be trained to be the priest and not only the sinners! We are humans, and error is a human condition, it is fault in our creation, if it were not for these errors we would have been Gods! We should not be hard on ourselves and let the flesh eating virus of guilt eats us alive but rather we should mend the inflammation where it hits and thus building a stronger immunity system.
Confession is nothing but that moment of clarity and awareness that we stand in front of the mirror of the soul and acknowledge that we did something wrong because we feel we became less than what we used to be before committing that deed! It is the moment when we feel the pain we inflicted upon others while we were insensitive to its occurrence before!
It is the re-examination of our actions in the light of others , it is the re assessment of the sum of the experiences that led us to the present moment , to stop and think of the pros and cons of each matter we handled , it is the return to the self, the hearing of the soul’s screams and joys!
It is not admitting we have a bizarre way of life, or having an audacious tongue or standing out from the crowd, these are things which we should never ever use the word confess for having, these are traits of heroism and bravery that we should be proud to have and not ashamed of !
Repent what made you less human but never confess being too human!
Lina Hanna Hanna…
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