The cold wind of Abandonment

To be left behind, to be deserted in the midst of populated lands, to feel utterly alone and lonely is the saddest emotion a human being can ever experience. Haven’t we all felt abandoned even for a short period of time and haven’t we all shouted to God or our loved ones the famous line:” Why have you forsaken me?

Human beings were not created to live in isolation; we are born into societies into the warmth of a family that embraces us and a home that we feel safe and content within the security of his walls. But there are many kinds and sorts of isolation, someone can isolate us from the gardens of his soul and hear when he casts us away from his love and destroys all the bridges that lead to his mind so even if we were occupying the same geographic spot with him we would still feel in the midst of isolation.

Men separate those who are a threat to society with their ignorance and murderous ways! They are cut free from the tissue of the community so that can no longer be a danger to the rest of us! To be cast out is to be marked with shame and blame, it is a sign of being more monsters and less humans, it is the pain of losing the freedom and the validation of a respectful being that can participate in the show of life, so they turn to viewers in life, apathetic, their existence and its lack is all one as they stand from the same distance.

But for some of us, it did not take a criminal history for us to feel deserted in our own exile away from any form of life, sometimes we are prisoners of our own characters and hostages of our own fear and insecurity, and most of the times when we fall, we hit bottom alone, with no other hand to lift us up or take the fall with us, and that s when we suffer the hideous form of segregation.

It is that moment when lose the illusion of the great myth of empty promises and friends become foes, and we feel that even God is deaf to our calling, so we start tormenting our minds with the feel of being alone, of standing to our terra firma while the earth moves and flows forward and the more the river of life runs ahead, the more we feel fixed and paralyzed to our grounds.

When this happens, there are two ways to deal with the devastation either fall and stay down or we fall and we use the same ground we fell onto to stand up again and revolt against it all and start running and if we can’t run, we walk and if we fail to walk to crawl if it is what it takes to get back on the track again and even if we move slow and steady it will get us ahead, there is no life in stillness only death and decay.

If you do not wish to be vacant, you have to get on your feet and move ahead, even if it takes blood sweat and tears for in the arena of life, only those who smug their face with mud and dirt are worthy to enjoy life’s bounty of fresh water fountains where they can quench their thirst and enjoy running free along with the crowd in the warm sun of recognition!

Lina Hanna Hanna.