Joy of what might have been… sorrow of what will never be

“Only if” is a painful declaration! Our minds roam in the “it would have been” fields and areas of elation, of what could have happened if we had what we ached for had things been different in reality.

Lina Hanna Hanna

Only if we can fill that Gap between our hearts desires and what is within our Grasp… If only we had the power over time and space so we can manipulate the ” here ” and” there” and swing and juggle between them, it would be possible for us to get” there” from “here” and be transported to where we aspire backwards and forward whenever we had the urge to be taken to where we are obsessed…

The ecstasy of what could have been and the regret of what will never be… The howling of million unsaid muted words, the bleeding of executed emotions we put to death out of mercy … The unborn dreams, the unspoken passion, a suicide of feelings that can never be converted…

Stripped of every possibility, exposed to the flashes of reality.. of the ” never will be” terra firma that robs us our pulse, we loose the vibe with every passing hour, we crawl through existence at a time we want to run after it and not from it…we want to feel the spark running through our layers…we want to feel our being more and more … we want to reach new altitude on the scale of time and space…

This crack between the terra firma we live in and the chimera ground we escape to and wish for, the fracture is vast and impossible to fill up or block up…

we are ambushed…and if we try to jump over the barrier of reality we will be injured from the constant contact of our soft skin against the stiff and rigid fences as we try to break out…

Lay down your arms, and yield to your actuality and just try to adapt and find your feet there, become accustomed and train your eyes to see the blockage as a wake up call to remind you that sometimes we get what we want in life and sometimes we should educate ourselves to want what we have…