Solitude

We all hate loneliness, for we know what it sometimes mean ,to be alone, to never have someone to wait for us when we get back home, to never have someone who will get scared if we got late or did not answer our phone, to go back home and not have someone asking us how did our day go? No one is at the door, absolutely no one, no other face and no other voice but our own.

But didn’t we all feel that same solitude while we had that someone who is waiting back home for our return? Didn’t we all sense isolation in the midst of population? When we sit there and hear their words, but not exactly the words we wanted to hear in order to cast the fatigue of the day away? When they look at us but they don’t see us? They fail to connect with our souls and minds? They fail to observe what we need in that moment in time? Or what has changed in us? Isn’t this segregation too?

Is being alone the same as being lonely? Are we lonely when we are alone? Haven’t we all felt lonely with someone while occupying the same place? We could be alone with someone and we can also feel we are accompanied even if we were isolated in a desert where no other human can be found.

To be alone is never to be lonely, and to be lonely does not mean to be alone. Sometimes we are strangers even to ourselves, we feel we immigrated from our own being, and when we lose the ability to connect with our inner world , and hear our inner voices, it is in vain to think that another presence with us could change that remoteness we feel from ourselves through a conversation or even a touch, for a conversation becomes distant meaningless voices, and a touch becomes cold stains of another failure to feel , and thus our channels of receptiveness are shut down and closed , we become captives in our own globe.

But we are in fine tuning with our inner waves, hearing and recording and taking notes of that interior traffic we get caught up into everyday, we are never alone. For we are always in our own company, and we feel we are in the middle of a crowded room where we can communicate freely inward and outward. And by being as such, we can decode the most challenging thoughts that dwell in our minds and reciprocate with someone else’s thoughts as well, thus, exchanging ideas and elaborating on a higher level, intellectually, emotionally and physically.

There are no walls to keep us from entering to our own chambers or to the chambers of those we love when we possess an open mind and soul, when we educate our senses and elevating them to a higher rank where we can train our ears to hear and to listen, our eyes to look and to see, our hands to touch and to feel, our mind to be open and enlightened.. We should always be aware of what changes within ourselves so that if we collide with the change that occurred with our beloved ones we would have the space and the ability to take notice and correspond with that.

Be alone from time to time, for it will sharpen our sanity, our psyche and it will instruct our brainpower and make space for all what we are to encounter. But beware from being lonely when you are alone, for then the bell shall ring declaring a state of war you have to engage yourself into in order to conquer your internal obstacles and clear the path for a road companion on the journey of your life.

Lina Hanna Hanna