Be the Poem

Enjoy what you can but endure what you must; for when you gain anything, you lose something ; when one thing increases , another thing decreases but it is the only way for you to shed skins and become a metamorphosed you!

Love for the sake of loving and you will be rewarded with riches beyond the materialistic illusions! Laugh often and whine less!

Climb your own mount Everest and do not be scared to roam deserts and valleys if life throws you there, grow your own wings and learn how to fly away from any valley no matter how deep , do not let any situation prison you , you are born free and no one can capture your freedom unless you give it away!!!

Surround yourself with the people you love every day for you can never know what day can be your or their last day! Express yourself always for those who care for you will not try to duct tape your mouth and mute your voice, shout if you have to! Never let anyone put you down for you are a conqueror since birth, overcome your fear and you will never be scared again!

Do not compromise your rights of happiness, you are responsible for your own contentment, you bring joy to your life by keeping your face to the sun and taking it as it comes!

Don’t be reckless with your heart, it is the breath of love in your body; know for whom to open its doors and whom to thrust out for you to stay safe and sound! Know yourself, your own significance and esteem comes only from you, never let anyone else give you your importance, you are a value even if you stand alone, you do not to be in the crowds so you can validate your grounds, within you are all the places and spaces!

Never be the tail, always be the head! Make your own rules; question even your answers, live life to its fullest and in all its dimensions! Investigate, inquire, and destroy your margins in order to re-create new ones, allow yourself to flow and submerge with the tides of your being!

Do not accept any truth for the one and only absolute truth and remember there is two sides for every story listen to both versions in order to find the right one! Be tolerant we are not gods, we are mere humans and everyone suffers and hurts somewhere along the way!

Trust few and never lose trust in yourself and your ability, you have hidden fortunes waiting for you to dig deep within your existence in order to benefit from their bounty! When you want something want it for your own reasons and not because others have it or want it as well!

Always seek to understand and never to judge! Free your mind from all prejudices in order to adhere to any conviction! Be a white paper every day in your life, refresh your senses so you can sharp them and make better use of them!

Sing, dance and go crazy in celebration of life and the human psychological states of being! Enjoy a good meal with great company in a picturesque place where you can have glimpses of paradise within its walls!

Be strong enough to overcome life’s battles and choose yours very wisely! No not feel afraid of falling down but rather be scared of staying down, it is okay to fall apart under life’s stressful events but it is never alright to stay under, use the same ground you fall on to rise again!

You and you alone know what is better for you; learn how to have a dialogue with yourself rather than a monologue with someone else!

Enjoy the mysteries of life and take delight in knowledge, always educate your curiosity for what lingers between the tangible world and the unseen world is worth the hardship and the nights of inquiry!

Be Sinbad and sail into dangerous seas for what stays behind the horizon will make you tolerate the voyage!

Never have regrets over what has passed for it is left behind for a reason, just take pleasure in the present and be open to the future!

Respect yourself and your elderly for they are your root to the past and your image into the future! Join the army of righteousness no matter how tempting and comfortable the wickedness might appear, know the mirage from the well of water when you are really thirsty do not fall into the trap of seeing what you want to see rather than what is already there!

Be you at all times, never pretend to be who you are not for those who matter will not mind the real you and those who do mind, you are better off without them! Be alive, live and never be satisfied to just exist!

Lina Hanna Hanna.

When the Deception bells ring!

We all know the famous saying “Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me”…Every one of us has been deceived at some point of his life, we all bear that scar deep within our souls, and because nothing in the world can match the pain we feel when we lose our self esteem and self image for the person who deceived us we start to punish ourselves for we feel responsible for putting ourselves out there and for giving someone a trust that is raped, used and abused! But often we get so angry after an emotional fraud where someone makes us think and feel like we are the center of his universe, like we are his oxygen, that our presence in his life is crucial only to find out he was after something , what a blood sucker he is that small hearted person, that insignificant half of a human being who lies in sincerity to we can believe in his deceit!

He is a flesh eating virus of true love and faith in another human heart, he is the parasite that lives on our emotional dispenses so he consumes us splurging on our passionate banquet until he is about to explode but he is unable of giving back even the smallest spark of affection or even respect for what is he feeding off!

We are usually betrayed the most when we put someone in very high and different rate on our relationship scale, or our favorite persons list , when we admire someone to the point we think of him as more of a god and less of a human, and then he just shows his true color in testing situation where he ceases to shine and starts to fade into black, when he no longer feels our pain, we suddenly our cry out for help is muted and silenced in his ears, when our absence is no longer noticed but rather filled up with the presence of someone else, when our anguish is a turn off to his excitement and joy of life, then and only then we lose the illusion and we gain a truth that will make us wiser and harder to fool!

Deception is an eye opener, a slap in the face for those soft hearted easily duped persons, those who own a big heart, those who give from their souls and the core of their beings to the little tiny souls who are as far away from their own selves as it can be, those who are mediocre in giving, those who are self treacherous, those who are strangers to anything that is noble , those who are dwarfs in their dignity, those who will be spitted from the womb of respect, murders of hope, assassins of dreams, robbers of trust and molesters of true love, they distort the sweet music of confidence and assurance, they never provide or offer , they only receive , take and ask for more.

Never lose the lesson when you lose someone you never had! Allow your deception to transform you and use that same deception to rise above your pain. Never become a deceiver once you are deceived, but fight your anger and conquer your need to hurt when you are hurt! Never lose your faith in good people for they exist and they are worthy of your trust but like anything of great value it is rare to find but it sure is worth the waiting and the searching for its discovery!

Always watch out of those who will give you false gifts, fake feelings, pseudo relationships, sellers of illusions; they live near to the ground with the worms , like those spine-chilling insects they creep into your life, inhabit your world and feed from your being, they get nourished from your starvation , they are insensitive , they are monsters in disguise , beware of them, and if they ever find their way into your heart, be cautious and stay on alert less they attack your safety zones and make you vulnerable to their sweet talking ways and manipulative methods, if you fall into their trap, try to save yourself and learn to be more vigilant in the matters of your heart and who enters to your most sacred intimate place on earth!

Lina Hanna Hanna.

The breathing of Patience and the art of Distraction

“Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience “says Ralph Waldo Emerson, but how many of us are really patient? In a society where everything is about being fast and ready to be served how can we take on the rate of the natural world? How can we have endurance when we are born into a world where everything is about speed , where no one really take the time to show patience , when everyone regards patience as a form of weakness when there is nothing else to be done.

Every human being who is over eager and impatient in the pursuit of enjoyment will be deprived of that pleasure by pushing his desire off its limit in an attempt to bring closer but little does he know he is setting it in motion further ahead where he has to wait a bit more…Patience requires faith in the process of time and space unfolding when the right moment comes, like in mother nature , the fruits when mature enough fall off the tree naturally without the hasty hands who want to grab it prematurely by force, to gain time while killing it with its own hands!

Everything in nature lingers still, not in vain or in despair but in hope and in certainty of the rewards promised when the waiting is done.

As for us humans, waiting teaches us a great deal of wisdom and maturity , it tames our extravagance and our short tempered characters, because while we wait , we take the time to observe and discern every little matter that we usually disregard when we are in speeding up for the result as soon as we can.

Waiting has a magic of revealing the veils of a rush hectic world and what can be enclosed behind those curtains; waiting discloses the concealed wealth in us, but waiting is not passing time, for some of us run away from the idea by being artists of distraction, they cannot endure the same rhythm and the tranquility the waiting game imposes on them, so they start creating ways and methods to mask their fears with diversion and entertainment whether it may be going for a trip in the time of waiting, or mingling and being social butterflies , anything in order not to sit with ourselves and face the clock ticking while we wait so we feel the hours dragging on and on and on , so we feel we are about to lose our sanity so we fill up this time with commotion until the time of waiting has ended.

When time is not fast enough, we want to resist and never to persist, we do so by filling it with every form of activity will push the wheel of instance forth and thus making us almost unconscious of the hours passing so we can feel better because we did not given in to those moments of patience.

It is not wrong to adopt this policy but it is not rewarding or juicy on the scale of self maturity and self control! Distraction makes us wander from one land to another avoiding setting foots in our own land where we are mostly needed even if we hated to step in…it takes us away from the loud sound of a clock ticking but it also takes us away from discovering boundless riches within us…

Even wounds need time to heal, privileged is the one who has patience to smile and learn while the cut is restoring back to its healthy status, and poor is the one who curses and rages the process that will liberate his soul from pain for he will suffer twice the injury and double the time!

Lina Hanna Hanna.

انا من انا وانت لست بأنا

لكل من يوجٌه إليٌ أصابع الإتٌهام والذنب أقول :

لو كان نجاحي يذكٌرك بفشلك لن اعتذر عن ذلك ، إستثمر وقتك لتصليح حياتك أنت بدلاً من أن تنشغل بالشوائب التي تراها في حياتي أنا... لو كان نضالي وكفاحي يذكٌرانك بإستسلامك لماذا لا تجدٌ وتجتهد لتكون مشاركاً في حلبة وجودك بدل أن تكون مشاهداً بين الحشود التي تتمنٌى أن تشاهدني أسقط ؟ إن كانت شفافيتي تضئ على عتمة ريائك وادٌعاءك بما لست أنت عليه لتمرٌسك انا بفنون الكذب والخبث سبباً لكي تكرهني فيا ليتك تحب الصدق بقدر ما تكرهه في !

إن كنت في عمر الثلاثين وما زلت عزباء، هذا بإختياري لأني لا أقبل أن أتزوٌج إلا ٌلأسبابي أنا فقط ، وليس للأسباب الخاطئة أو إرضاءً للتقليد أو رأفة بالوقت أو لكي أرضي الجميع ما عدا نفسي ,فأعيش معايير مزدوجة أو أعيش كذبةً كبيرة فقط من أجل أنانيٌتي أو محبٌة بالانجاب فقط ,فيكون زواجي وسيلة لأخذ بركات المجتمع المنافق فأذكٌرك بفرصتك الضائعة وحقٌك بالسعادة الذي قتلته أنت بنفسك عندما ساومت بحقوقك وهويتٌك من أجل غايةٍ ما تدور في فضاء أنانيتك ، لا تلمني وتحمٌلني عقدك النفسية ....

إن كان خرقي للقوانين الإجتماعية التي لا قناعة لي بها يجعلني متمرٌدة فليكن ! أنا أفضٌل أن أخرق قوانين العالم بأسره على أن أخون ذاتي ومبادئي التي أنا أؤمن بها ,ليس لأنها سلٌمت إليٌ عبر أجيالٍ مضت ، فأنا أعود للماضي فقط من أجل معرفة جذوري وأخذ ما يخدم قناعتي ولا أعيش على أفكار معلٌبة جاهزة للإستعمال ، أنا أدحض أجوبتي ، أنا في حالة بحث دائمة ، لدي ثوابت ولكن أحب التغيير. لا الزمن ولا ألدين يكبٌلني على كرسي ٌالحقيقة المطلقة والثابتة ....

إن كنت أعيش لضميري وليس من أجل صيت ذهبيٌ برٌاق، ان كان هذا ما يجعلك تكره ما تراه مفقوداً فيك وموجوداً فيٌ ، فهذه شياطينك وليست ملائكة الخوف علي ، لا تخف عليٌ بل خف على نفسك من نفسك ، فأنت تعيش من أجل الناس وأنا أعيش من أجل تجربتي الإنسانية ولذٌة الإكتشاف ولكي اتطوٌر على كل الأصعدة وأجعل من بقائي حيٌة ترزق تجربة أكبر من أكبر وهمٍ أو سرابٍ لديك ! فهذا مرض عليك أن تعالجه بدل أن تتمنٌى لي الشفاء العاجل ....فأيٌها الطبيب طبٌب نفسك !

أنا أقول لك بأفعال ما لا تجرؤ أن تقوله أنت حتٌى في قرارة نفسك ، لا ترجمني بحجر نقصك كالجبان بل واجه لحظة حقيقة لكي تتعرٌف على نفسك وتقابل الوحش في دخلك بدل أن تراه في كل الناس إلا ٌفي ذاتك!!! أنا من أنا وأنا فخورة بمن أنا ، بسيٌئاتي قبل حسناتي ، ولكن الله وحده يحاسبني فأنت بشر ولست بإله !!!!

لينا حنا حنا

Love: A blade or a feather?

Love… Who amongst us did not feel the cupid’s arrow piercing his heart? Whoever has opened his heart to the winds of passion took the risk of unlocking its security device for either a blade that will cut our emotions or for the feather that will delight and tickle our deepest dormant passion, there are no guarantees when that door is opened...

All of us, We are victims of cupid’s hazard when we fall in love; whether happily or sadly in love, we always blame a third party when we feel injured and hurt so we start the blame and the shame war in order to hide away from facing ourselves and admitting to the fact that it is not cupid’s fault but rather our very own mistake! We are the prey and the assassin of our own love… we are each other’s predator, when we give away our protection by letting someone inside the corridors of our most intimate inner rooms, and that person steals from our buried fortunes that we had the intention of giving him its wealth willingly but we walk in on him trying to rob us our most valuable jewels and riches;

oh the pain of that feeling is just grand , it is almost unbearable to put up with, so our first reaction would be denial , we refuse to see what we look at by force of declining to the current reality, so we start to turn in circles around them , when try to justify and excuse their burglary by telling ourselves lies that we know deep down inside are just fabrication of our own weakness and fear of losing them … But did we ever stop to ask :” didn’t we already lose them when we caught them red handed”? Will our disagreement and disapproval of the fact a change of that truth?

The answer is no, no matter how bad we want to alter the pain and the trauma we feel into a pseudo sting, the pain is still there, we can feel it closing its hands on our necks, we feel that aching in our chest and we wish if we had a way to pull our heart outside so it can rest from his ordeal and end his agony.

So we start to ask ourselves why? Why did the person we loved hurt us this way? How could he have been so blind to the light we burst on him? How could the voice who always release waves of softness and tranquility to our channels would transform to become harshness? How could the warmth of his hands turn into frost and cold? How come the closest person in the world for us could turn into the most distant person on earth for us? How can the intimacy we once shared turn into an alien emotion where we would feel outsiders and strangers inside their emotional lands? How can our paradise spin around into a living hell? How can the one person who gave us happiness inflict such sorrow in us?

Millions of questions that lead to one answer only, that person were not the right person for us, for in the journey of our emotional safari we will meet every kind of people , each is a guest that we should welcome for his brings along a certain trait in us, each guest will help us grow spiritual as well as affectionate muscles in order to make us stronger for the right person who we will sure meet somewhere along the road to our own happy ending and we should always remember that the heart is the only instrument that can still play even when broken , it may actually produce more sounds and more angelic tunes when broken … we should never despair and let a failure of a relationship take away what is beautiful and honest about us, for if we the victims become hunters how can we blame the hunter’s strategy any longer?

No one deserves to take the very best in you while they leave you, rise above your ego and your flaw and you will reach the seventh sky of love and life! Bear the blade cut so you can feel the healing soft power of a feather…. Remember only you can mend your broken heart …

Lina Hanna Hanna.

توأم الرٌوح

هو ناطق بما تبوح به الروح للروح من دون لغة أو كلام ، هو عنوان السلام وطارد الأحزان ... هو نصفٌ إنفصل عند خلقه عن نصفه الأخر لذلك يظل يشعر بالنقصان والحرمان إلى ما يوازن به دفٌة الميزان ! هو شريك وشقيق ,رفيق وعشيق الفكر والروح ، هو من يبرز ويضيء على أفضل ما فينا فيستثيره ليظهر إلى الواجهة ، هو من به يكتمل المعنى والذي بدونه ينتقص المبنى !

الكثيرون منا يبحثون عنه والقليلون منا فقط من يجدوه في زحمة الوجود ، ولكن عند لحظة الٌلقاء تلك تتغيٌر مواقع المجرٌات والكواكب، تلمس الروح لمس اليد روحها ،وتفرح فرحة وجود المفقود الذي إرتبطت به منذ الوجود من خلال تلك الخيوط الخفيٌة التي تربط أعماق روحٍ بروحٍ أخرى تناجيها عبر أثير الكون وتشعر باتٌصالها بها حتى عند انفصالها ....

هو إنصهار لا مجهود فيه بل هو نعمة سماوية تلقائية ، لا تكلٌف أو تصنٌع فيها ...هي علاقة غير ماديٌة بل جوهرية ، هي أزليٌة وليست عرضيٌة ...

توأم الروح هو ذاك الذي يسمع أغنيتك الداخلية ومن يغنيها معك أيضاً ... هو ذاك الرباط الذي يستمتع بعقدته ولا يحاول فكها بل يبتهج في كل مرة يشعر بها بتلك الخيوط تشدٌه نحوها ...هو من بحوزته مفاتيح يفتح بها أقفال أرواحنا وعقولنا،فيكشف النقاب عن صندوق الجواهر المدفون في داخلنا ... هو فقٌاعة الأمان حيث نشعر بالطمأنينة والسكينة بعيداً عن الثرثرة والضٌغينة ...

هو مرآة تعكس الجميل والقبيح فينا ، فيصبح القبيح أقلٌ قبحاً بوجوده إلى جانبنا والجميل فينا يزداد جمالاً وألواناً تتلألأ في سمائنا الداخلية ...

هو إتصال الماضي في الحاضر ليستمر في المستقبل ، هو الأبدية على الأرض الفانية ، هو الحياة في قلب وصلب الموت ، هو الروح في نواة المادٌة والجسد. ...

هو روعة الحياة ووهج شرارة لا تنطفئ مع رياح التغيير بل إن هذه الرياح تزيد من اشتعالها وتأجٌج نيرانها التي تدفئ كل من حواليها ...هو لقاء ما قبل الميلاد بعد ميلادنا ، هو عودة روح إلى موطنها بعد غربتها ، بعد شوقٍ إلى ما يسدٌ تسرب الحياة من ثقبٍ أوجده البعد عنها ، فأصبحت النفس تتآكل يوماً بعد يوم إلى أن جاء اليوم الذي ارتطمت به بنيزك أصلح من مسيرتها وأعادها إلى فلكها المفقود.

فإن لم تلتقي به بعد ,لا تفقد الأمل فهو موجود يبحث عنك كما تبحث عنه ، وأنا قد وجدته حتٌى عندما لم أكن في بحثٍ عنه ... هو يعطي حياةً لحياتي ، ومذاقاً لوجودي ، وألواناً لكياني، وبهجةً لقلبي ، سلاماً لعالمي ووحدةً لتجربتي الإنسانية المتعدٌدة ... أدين بالكثير للسٌماء وله ، هو أنا خارج حدود الأنا ، هو الروح خارج جسدي ولكنٌها مسكونة فيه ومنه .... هو شقيق الأنا الغير الأنانيٌة...أدامك الله لي يا توأم روحي ...يا مرافقي في رحلة نموي الروحي...

لينا حنا حنا

You say you love me…

I hear your love declaration every day and I wonder, if you really love me then how come you can see me every day but not see through me!

You sit next to me every day but I feel the distance away from you more and more.

You rarely speak to me but when you do you speak without saying anything that can play on my emotional cords.

You tell me how much you miss and want me but yet you never take the time to hug or kiss the craving away.

You say you cannot live without me but yet month pass and you do not find a way to come to me so I stay days and days waiting and postponing my love for you.

You say you will always be there but you are only there when I am in danger or in trouble and for that I appreciate you a lot, you are someone I can depend on in my times of need when life strikes it’s disasters my way you take the fall with me, but I want you to be there even when I am not in trouble or when something is wrong with me, I want to enjoy my time with you problems free!

You say you adore my mind but you never fit me in your busy schedule to read into my thoughts and deep intimate words when I write them down for others to see and appreciate.

You say there can be no one else for you but me, although you rarely have the time for me!

You say you know me but heart but you never know many layers of me!

You say you are the man for me but you do not make me feel like a woman but rather a girl whom you think she feels what you feel.

You say that love is the years I say yes that‘s true but what have become of our years together? Repetition of repetitions, when you stopped studying me, you stopped recognizing the change in me, you only see what you used to see, what you refuse to distinguish, I am not the same old me, I have evolved into a new me, I am not that scared little girl who can’t get by without your presence, what hurts the most is that I am slowly walking out and you are to blind to see and follow me!

You say you would rather die than to go on without me but are you really with me?

You say I color your world with enthusiasm and joy but those who give laughter are in need of it too!

You tell me I am beautiful but you fail to see the details in me!

And when I get cold and distant you ask me:” where are you, don’t you want to see me”? When you should be telling me wait for me and come and turn what is frozen in me into heating system of a sunny me!

You tell your friends how smart and sharp I am and I play along in your show off game of me being your trophy woman, but you fall short on noticing the empty words I say and the role I participate in just to play along!

You say you are crazy about me but your rational mind does not succeed in adhering to the cause effect principle of give and take and you miss the action and reaction speech!

I have news for you, my silence you did not hear and so my speech will fall unclear! Just tell me now that you love me and I will ask you after all of this:” Do you still think you love me”?

Lina Hanna Hanna.